S has been found in Ballarat. He crashed his car. Burnt his clothes in a camp fire. Tried to cook poisonous mushrooms. He was taken to hospital. I drove him to the CAT team. Private won’t take him because of his community treatment order. It is heartbreaking. He needs rehab. We went to I & O’s and O’s eldest son H was there with his girlfriend. We chatted about writing. I like to find out what the kids are up to these days. They watch Lena Dunham’s Girls too. We had a fire and ate cake. The children danced and played around the fire. I’m so sad about S.